Panthers Mauled by Tigers

It has been a fruitful In Camp Training. I achieved all my learning objectives and realised that things that grew with me stayed with me. All it took was the appropriate triggers to fire my synapses. Seemingly complex operations and procedures became second nature.

My synapses must have been fired vigorously as my thinking framework has changed and my perceptiveness has improved. My cognitive senses have become heightened and I gained an increased awareness and appreciation of situation.

I feel more confident and I could control my anxieties much better.

I'm happy for this and grateful to the Almighty for such gift - the best birthday present to date!!!

A Harbinger of Unhappiness?

I was saddened by the stiffness and pain of my right leg, from my lower thigh to my upper calf. There was sharp pain and restricted mobility. I could not stretch my leg fully.: (

It must have been caused by extensive walking over the weekend and carrying a heavy load up three flights of stairs.

Now, I'm walking with a cane and a limp. I'm very drowsy from the jamu that I have consumed to speed up the recovery rate and prevent the build up or fluid in the affected area.

How will I cope with my In-Camp Training this week?

Whenever I have a physical condition, like this pain in my leg, I have to assess the possibilities for psychosomatic responses to certain triggers for my anxiety. Is this condition a sign of unhappiness that I'm encountering at work? What am I unhappy about?

Though, I have created a list of "What makes me happy here?", deep inside I know that I am not comfortable in being constraint; have my wings clipped and my ideas stifled. Should I take the risk in this uncertain times to make it on my own again? How should I go about making such decisions? Reflect, review, reorganise and respond - the 4Rs for those in cross-roads. I've been in so many cross-roads that I should be an expert by now.